Ah liang~ fcuking good luck to you

life goes on...... and on.....

wow.... it's a big gap between OCT and DEC that i didn't post....my blog looks dead.... fine.... now i am making it alive again..... haha..... i have change my style of my hair lately..... u know BOB?.. usually this style is choose by girls.... but for boys..... it's like a long lasting fashion..... cause... it's unique... i will keep the hairstyle until a very long time.... this hairstyle was style by my friend, that still learning how to cut hair.... he uses his basic skills to cut for me.... well.... i like it... but it was too short.... he told me he cut wrong... :P.... well... fine.... i will keep this hairstyle up...^^... I'm very fashionable..... claps*..... okay... lets talk about SPM....... I'm sick 3 days before SPM started..... the 1st day BM paper..... i didn't study at all..... 2nd day English paper also the same.... i was suffering from Dengue fever.... i kept telling myself.... that i will do to the end of my breath.... no matter what.... while i was writing karangan..... my head feels dizzy.... and whole body very weak.... while my sickness grow in silence..... and my mouth kept close... suddenly....after the ENG paper.... on that day.... i was ordered by my mom to go for a blood test.... at that moment..... my skin started to have some red dots.... all over my legs and my bare hand.... i was worried... and i went toilet and laughed for a moment..... telling myself was infected with disease (this moment.... i didn't know i have this dengue fever) then.. i was send to Sunway Medical Centre... a private hospital.... ohh.... after when we reached.... we go for the emergency ward immediately and have a blood test... the doctor over there.... suspected me that i have a dengue fever.... well.... i was like.... =.=!... [ HELP ME ] .... God damn it...... i hate that moment the nurse poke the needle into my blood vain.... to have the glucose.... ohh.... that was pain.... i hate that... f**k it..... later i was instructed to go to the ward.... and have a rest.... i overnight at the hospital for 3 days 2 nights... hoping it will get better soon.... and now i am recovered.... hahas.... claps*.... now.... i can feel those patient boredom.... haha.... now.... i am as healthy as a horse.... voohoo!!!... full of energy.... but need to take care also la.... ^^..... ><..... fine.... SPM is going to over.... my next paper..... Account..... that is in the 1st DEC... ohh... i hate that.... i wan to rest.... at these moment.... haha..... after my SPM i will work... anyone wanna employ me? i can work anything as long it is busy..... haha^^..... i taught of going to LOW YAT and work.... or near by K.L.... cause.... 1st MONEY 2nd EXPERIENCES.... haha... well.... i like working the job i like... i want to try earning money by my own.... by no supporting by my parents to buy these buy that.... well... they will talk alot.... as usual... And... lately.... my guitar skills is improving.... glad with that.... hope i can keep it up all the time.... learning some new skills like tapping.... and 16x speed or 32x speed picking.... haha.... i am learning... i am.... i never abandoned my guitar before.... and my band will be active after SPM days.... so... please... do support us.... ^^... i love JAMMING!!!!

Game's Over~

SPM draws near..... while PMR is 2 days ahead.... i am controlling myself not to play games as well as not to join any parties or outing..... recently... i tried to study... but i can't.... lazy~ tired..... hiah~.... 3/10/09.... just play badminton with my buddies.... so tired... and my mother wants me to attend my brother's absents... every things get messed.... i was so tired... that i can't walk and tortures myself to walk...AT last... mom fetch me to factory.... really no mood and tired..... after that deadly tired day.... went tuition with my buddies.... haha~... kang never go today... cause he (Balik Kampung)..... after tuition some of my friends want to register for SPM seminar..... including me.... ^^.... when i started to see the schedule of the seminar.... i saw PMR..... PMR reminds me of HER~..... how deadly and badly i need her..... well~....i know i couldn't..... so i send my regards to her and wishing her good luck in PMR..... although she is worried about her PMR..... i try to comfort her.... dunno success or not? lol... and somethings in my head going round and round.... my feelings get stronger than before..... i was smiling to myself.... telling myself.... (Games Over & That's The Least I Can Do)

Arrghh~

Can't study~...T.T.... headache....sleepy.... lols... what to do?.... i cant be sleeping and rest every time... And... i can feel my studies improving very impressively.. I am catching up..... but... i can drop in every single time... DANGEROUS~.... now.... i study hard... and let love take care of the rest.... hope.... my result will be flying colours....Trying hard to achieve the best result in my life.... Flying high from the result i get in my life..... My target is... 9 SUBJECT ALL B1..... That's My Best result i ever get.... I am damn worried about my Commerce,Accounts,BM..... DAMN IT!!!!!!! Who can help me.... PLEASE HELP ME A.S.A.P @.@ Tomorrow is my 1st day of SPM Trial..... Walao.... I will do everything on my own..... i want to show the truth of me to myself.... i believe that i can do it.... After all these things Passes Smoothly.... i will be enjoying my life.... God... PLEASE.... BLESS Your saviour..... Bless.... Bless me... @.@ v....

Life..... Enjoy....

Life is so enjoyable... with friends.... with families... i can feel that my parents respect me as a grown adult... Of course that is the most important thing.... haha~... the way they care me.... the way they talk to me... is like... caring me.... but... freedom... i can feel the adults culture..... it was amazing... haha.... Of course i will miss my friends... when we are not together.... we spend most of the time at school... playing... making fun of each other... that is life.... life is to enjoy... but before you enjoy it.... we must work for it... remember..... just like now.... i work for my SPM..... cause i want to Rock with my band.... Drive my favorite car.... live with my dearest angel (You should know) ... as i promised myself... i will be a better man.... i will smile more... cause today... after tuition... my friend and i... went to pavilion for a movie and we had our lunch there....Excluding Halim (Puasa) pity him.... lol~.... after eating we went for a walk... every glasses of the shop i passed by... i smile to myself.... that is the golden second i found my wonderful smile.... which i can even love myself more... so i told myself.... less people will have this type of technique.... what i saw on the glass is reflecting back to me.... telling me to cheer up....and be a cheerful person... Smile more... not to be cool~..... well.... i promise i will change... ^^.... everyone... SPM & PMR is coming.... so... Good luck..... Wish all of you get good result... or flying colours if possible....^^ JuanG is here to Drag & Pull you up from death.... ^^

Snow in the Hell

A piece of snow fell in to the hell...bringing a last piece of cold feeling into the hell's dark world.... hot larva splashing everywhere in the hell... creatures we asleep in the very deep end of the corner.... guards patrolling the surrounding area to make sure every things going smooth.... snow which get trapped by the larva....changing snow in to larva... A secret which kept among every corner of the haze..... but now... has been taken care of.... flying ashes is the prove of the secret... but no one ever see it.... dust which covers the death..... has already awaken.... floors that demons used to walk.... has already been tear apart..... walls that bats used to live... now is a wall with bloodstains.... the heart of the devil will never change..... hatred in the heart..... happiness in the spirit hands.... there's a gate to the heaven.... it will not open until the key is achieved.... it is a stairway to heaven.... where i can lay my arms on the chairs..... ( this happening in myself that i only understand ) new start new life...... Study loo~.... SPM coming.... may the god bless me..... = =....
meditation....

farewell~ ( Box Of Sting )

It's late in the middle of the night now.... and i am not comfortable to sleep~ and lack of mood to do anything else ..... so i woke up and wrote this post at least to let me feel better..... Right??? well~...... I am having a lot of Factors in life~..... i really have no idea... how to handle it...... or to solve it....

1. SPM
2. My Future
3. Huey Yin
4. My brother's headphone (which i spoil it)

I'm tried to study by myself at home.... but i can't..... keep thinking of huey yin all day long.... i really put too much hope in myself to achieve her love and attention..... but.... it seems to be blank in her mind... well... she had a very caring brother... which studying in the same form but the other class.... these days.... i really want to get close with her brother.... i talk with him every time i saw him.... even a good-bye when going back home (Although he ignores me)..... well.... her brother seems to be abit animation..... everyone in the form knows.... that her brother is kinda weird.... but.... we don't mind it.... especially me..... her brother told me before.... Don't even think I can get his sister..... well..... i just ignore him.... but i m telling myself..... i will get her.... i will do anything to get her.... no matter what happens..... day by day...... it seems like.... she had forgotten me..... or start to ignore me.... i feel so hurt.... i feel the pain inside my deepest heart..... my mind whispering to me... saying that i m loser....Every time.... when i saw her... i feels like wanna sit beside her.... talk to her.... she had been polluted of my only dirty history in her mind by her brother..... well.... i know.... me and her.... don't have any future.... but.... i don't want her to misunderstand me.... i don't want she look down at me.... ''ACTUALLY I'M NOT A BAD PERSON AS YOUR BROTHER SAID!!!!! '' I got all the reason and answer behind my histories..... like you turn to the last page of your workbook..... why don't you look at the back for the answers? in fact of.... listening to your brother... which don't know anything about me..... It's really waste..... REALLY WASTE!!!! well.... I don't mind telling you..... I REALLY REALLY DISAPPOINTED AT YOU!!!! Anyway.... i understand that u are shy... or not bothered about me... but please..... accept my present as my farewell friend.... those are answers from my bottom of my heart... which i kept it 3 years ago.... until now.... u will never regret or loss after reading it..... but the present...... i swear u will remember it... cause i am the 1st one..... doing this.... ( I Think??) Anyway.... AUG 4...... i am waiting to give The BOX OF STING to you.... why must i name it the box of sting??? cause..... this present.... will makes you understand me more... and makes you remember it forever.... Example like..... Bee~.... bees only sting the one whom it hate the most .... but for me.... I sting the one whom i love the most~..... Understand me... please.....

SOt Sot~

recently... i can't online.... cause my brother didn't pay the Tm Net fees... the fact is.... TM net didn't give us the bill.... how can we pay???? lols..... SPM coming soon~...... and Trail SPM too..... damn it..... damn worry..... the least i can do is... study.... no more.... T.T.... how can~... last minutes..... lazy.... T.T..... i was like very sien and tired.... walao.... must pass eh~..... this Saturday Erica birthday gotta go Pavilion lols... 1st time going.... cause no one bring me go before.... now i know the destination where le...... go with my best friends... lols.... wear smart smart go.... (KL) say de.... haha.... see ba.... just bought the WAX..... Loreal brand de.... walao... RM18.... happy looo i planned to buy it for a long time d... but... no $$.... now buy le.... keke..... O.o 25 July.... my god.... just remembered That huey yin Birthday is coming.... damn it... gonna make the present.... need time..... hahah.... just booked the time with the driving license uncle.... 9.00.. so.. tomolo... i nvr go school... wakaka ponteng again....... Anyway.. happy to get The Gazette Limited Edition album..... happy....^^.... walao... Missed her alot leh.... T.T.... hope she get good results in Trail PMR..... good luck ya....

Last breath to the end of us~

Come'on JuanG..... Be strong.... she is still yours...... our wounds will cure in the matter of time..... I'm writing a Chinese lyrics and rhythm too... is all about you Huey yin~...... all pure you..... 110% pure..... trust my lyrics.... i sing to everyone..... even you.... i wanted to sing in front of you..... i want to hold your hands tight......you are everything to me.... i don't know how to explain.... i got a cursed in myself.... that curse is to prevent girls from getting hurt by my love.... but i really fall in love with you.... for almost 3 years.... same feelings..... i really can't take it anymore... my last breath for you is your birthday..... it decides our destiny..... if it's failure too..... then..... forget it...~

(currently listening to : Acid Black Cherry - Yasashi Uso )

^^

ahhaa.... today.... 11.13 p.m. just broke my 1st string of my electric guitar... lols.... keep playing bend,slide..... haha then i trying to bend 2 1/2 ( two and a half ) lol.... pluck*....... habis..... tomolo go guitar store buy strings... lol.... Bla bla~...... damn sien....

Today

Well~..... i have cut my hair.... lol... looks like kiddo~..... kay then~.... well... as usual..... missing huey yin~.... haha.... she was busying with her KH project.... so.... i didn't think to disturb her or what.... so... i ait at class and talk my my friends.... They are not friends... But BEST FRIENDS....... well.... i treat Indian,Malay,Chinese friends... are the same percentage at my school.... haha.... so i can learn some languages from them.... haha... i learn Tamil alot... lols.... but.. it is use to scold people de.... lols..... nvm.... It is still Languages... hahaas.... WOw.... Next monday... i m gonna have Oral Speaking in front of the assembly.... Kinda Excited.....hahas..... i can proved to everyone how good was my English~ haha.... good rite?...... I m the best in 5m hahaa..... Monday~..T.T...... Yea.. today.... after my washroom..... i saw huey yin outside.... so i wave to her.... she also waved and asked me...''You Cut your hair????" i say yea... i have cut... ^^..... she was like... Wierd.... haha... like this also happy... duno happy what...

Band~

Alright..... it seems like.... we have found the company that invite talents in the company.... It's really make me fulfill my dreams.... hahas.... anyway.... the 1st girl band ''Pinknoise'' They are at the same company too.... the guitarist told Leong about it.... how and where to find this place.... When i heard the Pinknoise was the 1st Malaysian Chinese band ar..... i really..... really.... very jealous.... i cant take it..... really cant take it..... i was telling myself.... ''how can these happen'' Then after some times.... my mind started to understand.... so.. now I'm normal..... ^^.....if i can join the company..... i would like to talk to them too.... is difficult to find girl guitarist in Malaysia.... hahas.... Let Yoges drum experience about 1 year+ 1st.... then only start joining in..... Between that we will make song 1st..... ^^ as i promised to myself to proved that I'm famous...and Stand on a stage....

How can i forget you...? Huey Yin

How can i forget you...?.... today.... i keep thinking of you..... feeling like wanna hug you.... but... i know i cant... cause you're not mine yet..... What can i do is just seeing you from far far away..... seeing you smiling is my wish.... why... why cant i stop thinking or loving you.... somethings pulling me nearer and nearer..... but... i dare not say it.... cause.... i know.... love cant last forever...... i don't wanna hurt someone heart anymore.... so now i m torturing myself.... by thinking that you hate me.... but... it will never ever works..... feeling so restless now...... heartless...... brainless..... everything..... i have torture myself from thinking of you for about 3 years.... but now... still the remaining little bits.... And the remaining little bits has grown up.... It's bigger than the previous one..... I cant get you off my mind..... HELP ME!!!!! i know you will never love me.... i know!!! WHY AM I EVEN TRYING......... Cause..... i love you...... You make my dreams alive..... When i was dreaming about you... i can feels the same thing in the dream on myself..... In the dream.... When you hold my hands.... i feel warm..... when you kissed me... i feel paradise.... When you hug me.... i can feel that you love me.... When your eyes look at me... i know you are the truth for my everything..... Dear angel...... Is that what we called angel..? YES it is.... Let fates decide our path..... our future..... Or it's WHITE~....

(currently listening to : Lips Of An Angel)

In need of Guitar...

Ibanez - RG1570 - RM 4400.00


Ibanez - S5470 - RM 7000.00

Well... today... i went to the Bently Music Showroom.... Opposite the Lot 10.... i went there with Leong..... cause... i want to see the prices of my favorite guitars there.... starting.... i taught is around 1800-2500+...... when i saw the 2 guitars prices.... i already.... Want to Faint..... the guy told me to buy Prestige Ibanez... Prestige means.... i'ts made in japan..... where.... u can sell back in higher prices.... than those normal Ibanez Guitar...... Too Bad...... i have a non-understanding musical instrument family..... they will just say..... Why so expensive????? Why the guitar can't play...???? Why Must Change Gear???? well.... i have already told my mom about that...... she still like... don't like me playing guitar......look down at me that i can't play guitar...... Seeing me in dead guitarist future..... worrying me that i will suddenly denied my guitar..... ARE YOU GUYS FREAKING ME OUT????? Well..... when i switch to Elec Guitar class..... i already told my mom about the usage of $$ will increase.... she say.... ok...... now.... she denied..... okay.... I'M Telling you!!!! I'M SAVING THE $$ FOR MY GEAR!!!!!! DON'T YOU DENIED.... I WILL WORK!!!!! WORK WITH MY OWN BLOOD....SWEATS...... HANDS!!!!! I WANT TO SHOW YOU ALL!!!! THE ANGER OF ME WHEN SOMEONE LOOKED ME DOWN!!!! THINK I'M USELESS!!!!! I WILL BE THE MOST FAMOUS GUITARIST IN MALAYSIA!!!!! I M TELLING IT TO MY FAMILY!!!!! YOU ALL!!!!! I WILL BE ROCKING IN MALAYSIA!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!! TELLING YOU ALL.... MY ANGER IS RISING.....!!!!! MCB!!!

If you looked down at me.... fine.... you will know the truth after severals years.... MY name will be in TV!!!! NEWSPAPER!!!!!! RADIO!!!!! Everywhere...... JUANG!!!!!!

A piece of Diamond

Diamond.... why are you so beautiful.... why are you hiding so deep in the earth? that i couldn't reach it with my own hands..... and pick you up just like picking up stones on the ground.... at the surface of earth there's only stones,sands,waters.... that are not as pretty as you.... I know diamonds are very selfish... they only let the one who really dare to risk for the diamond.... to take the diamond home..... to get you.... i will need to take my risk... to get you.... i will need some friends to help me out.... well.... i know...... humans are selfish too..... they only care about themselves and their beloved ones..... human want everything to be perfect.... as perfect as diamond..... Let me tell you... Huey Yin.... you are as perfect as diamond to me.... to get you... it's really difficult.... somehow.... i have tried my best to make you feels like I'm a man in your life.... But... you didn't notice.... how sad.... Yea... i admit that i love you..... but.. seems it is so difficult to get you.... i would like to challenge it.... hehes..... i know is quite tough..... i believe all my friends know that i love you~.... even your brother... and you too!!!....Just to tell you... I'm not any ''lalazai'' lols.... i just like their style.... their style is something like Japanese style.... so... i like Japanese style not ''lalazai'' okay~....??? ''lalazai'' is totally sucks for me.... they really suckx....MAX!!! Anyway... do you know my blog??? Huey Yin??? Or Wai Hoong??... i believe WAi Hoong know about it... but you~.... dunno eee~...... haha.... i was thinking and worrying about what you feels when reading my blog.... happy to know about it.... hahas.... Kay ba...Thats all.... A-Piece-Of-Diamond



Currently listening to : Joe Satriani - If I Could Fly

My pretty hair~

Gonna have a hair cut le~..... haha.... i m gonna cut short.......i will make myself look more nicer~ bye bye my hair.... T.T

Out with our old Friend

(Kang) Ehh.... cannot see....


Zhu Zap Zhuk~ Hmmm.... my favorite~ Kok Leong dont want eat~ too bad~


YC, KC


At the bus.... going to Sg.wang


Kang....~ YC....~ I was Blocked by YC~ =.=!


Lols.... Leong took my Camera and candid the couples in front~ lols funny~


KC laughing~


Woo~ Leong~


YC Ala crate..... Duno called what d....


Kc Ala Crate... also duno called what~


Eat~


The Girls opposite tought we took thier Picha... they were so proud....~ lols


Arrrr~


Yc taking photo~


Kang~ ^^


As usual... my favorite drink.... Ice Lemon Tea~ ^^


Kc was saying that this ABC was like intestine.... hahas....


He cant drink d...


This pose nice~ ^^


My god... Kc...no need drink till like this de....


Yc was talking with me....


Ahhhhhh..... eat eat.... JuanG needs FATTT...FATTTT~


Erica.... We spotted u again.... u can't lie.... u came for the semi-finals.... To get the Hello Kitty's Photo and Big Prices....


Look up~


O.o


At Sg.wang..... Mirror~


I was so shock that i saw this car at the rear.... haha nice~


Wow~


BMW 6 series? haha.... nice~


Pakistan??? lols.... Me, Leong, Yc at the Lrt Station


Lols..... when Yc saw this guy... he keep laughing and tell us... Terrorist hahas.... wanna boom the train~


He wanna boom the opposite railway door.... these people will effected~ saw him? let me zoom~


There he is.... He was talking with the handphone~lols....


The weather is windy..... at the Railway station.... see the grass... it makes me feels like i'm in paradise.... but better not step in... In Malaysia the grass full with snakes... or some other stuff~


Leong , Yc...... At the Lrt Station..... Back home le... Sunday.... Tomolo School orhh..... Exam~

13th June....Alone....

Low Yat Breakfast




Mazda Road show





This car Above the quality of paint is not shiny but yet smooth.... i like this... This is transformers series

JuanG in 12th june ^^

I was shocked that i found pigeons feathers at becky's cage.... the bird must be hurt~ ^^ My becky likes to play with small animals.... too bad.... the bird ran into my house and i knock it off... Pigeons brings a lot of bacteria... so.. i hate it... ^^


Dog food~ hehe... guess for whom?


For my precious Bunny.... ^^


They like it~.... hahas.... just dunno why... They refuse to eat grass after they ate the dogs food...


Aiyoyo... 1 by 1....


Becky... Muahhhh~


He is finding the cup to bite~


Found it!!


haha.... he sien le~ cute~


My mother made enzyme.... left is Dragon fruit.... right is kiwi papaya..... like it~ ^^

Messed-up in my mind~

Today~ morning.... mom woke up around 8.00 a.m..... cause mom need my help... to pluck the leaves.... it's traditional medicine.... cause... one of our workers wife got blood cancer.... so sorry to hear it.... then after plucking the leaves... my mom reminded me to study.... so... yea.... after my mom goes.... i back to sleep again~.... tired... lols.... after i sleep till 10 something.... i woke up and wash myself.... after washing.... is time to have breaklunch..... no choice to cook my own self after eating... i went up... to continue lyrics...... and rhythm... for our band's song... i really worked hard for it....today i have used 5 hours looking at the lyrics all over and over again and i Repair , Erase , Add , Think , Sing.... OHHHWWWWW... i have get enough of this... almost crazy.... Leong ask me to smoke.... i wish too.... That moment... i really wanna smoke.... really confused... and messed-up... later still got 30% more to finish the lyrics..... the melody quite sux..... trying to change lyrics and do it all over again.... ahhh duno lalalalalalala...... eiiyer.... wanna burst my head off.... (';..;') Later around 6.00 p.m.... i have to rush to my guitar class..... On the way to the centre.... i keep thinking about 'How About Just A cigarette ?' i was wondering...... After the guitar class... on my way back home.... i decided to stop at the mamak to have some drinks later i stand in front of the counter... looking at those cigarette feel like buying it.... luckily my wallet have not enough $$ soo.... i walked away.... until now.... back home le... feel like totally down~.... haiz... why am i like this..... why~.....